My Anodyne

Your tainted love
It trickles down
Like an IV drip,
Plops into me
A bit by bit, and I feel
Foolishly sanguine, comatose.
I am your hallowed vessel,
On a lethal dose of you
I’ve overdosed.

I never noticed
When my own blood
Turned to water
In your hands,
When I found myself warped
Into your version of me –
Meek, bleak, servile,
Blind to your failings,
Sold into serfdom,
Ready for your commands.

But I’m cosy now
Warm, fuzzy.
My head is dizzy
With the drug
Of the promises
You fail to keep.
Yet you are
The remedy for everything,
The panacea to cure me
From the eternal pain that I seek.

Every now and then
When I meet
With the past,
I’m lost,
Groping for my own reality.
But you rescue me,
Inject me
With your substance;
Your excuses,
Your treasonous truths,
About my former banality.

And I’m subdued then,
Sated in the knowledge
That I’m now loved.
Even if that love
Be flawed to the core.
Funny how the lies I once abhorred
Bother me no more.

I’ll lay dormant
In this cage you built me
I’m too far gone,
Beyond hope.
Your drug courses
In my veins like blood my own.

Come, sweet liar,
Inject me again.
Claim me, sustain me.
Come whisper in my ears
Your bald lies.
Come dupe me again,
My anodyne.


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